Refrigerator

I have been wanting to start writing associations for a long time. Of course, retirement gave me space for that. Today I decided to finally start writing and share the first association with you.
Incidents from everyday life, somehow with age, associate me with spiritual life and make me connect them with each other.
I called this association the refrigerator.

Often my husband reproached me for reaching and moving things in the refrigerator from one place to another. And today, after we returned from the market, I caught myself in that activity of mine and naturally justified my action.
Well, how am I supposed to put down the big cheese bowl now that we've eaten more than half of it and there's very little cheese left, and the bowl is taking up space in my fridge. I moved it to a smaller bowl and made room for something else. And we have almost eaten the melon, one more piece is left, and it is still standing in a large bowl. Put the last piece of melon in a small bowl. Oops, and here a space opened up for me. Eeeee, the bag of cucumbers from last time is still empty in the drawer, and the cucumbers are now more than half eaten, they have spread out, made themselves comfortable in the drawer, they have also taken the place of the peaches, so apparently there is no place for them. I cleaned the cucumbers and brought the peaches to the neighborhood.

And so countless other moves and rearrangements in the fridge, in the same space, allow me to make room for new things.

So I came to my association of the refrigerator with my body, my mind, my emotions.

I have always wanted changes in the space I live in and in my knowledge of things and learning new things. There are people who simply don't like changes, they are fine with something put on and left behind. But my body, my mind, my emotions, and the refrigerator just can't work like that, and so they are very interconnected.

Today I learned something, I use it for a certain period in my life, so I realize that other things have come out that work even better than what I have learned so far. I remove what I have learned so far and give way to new, better knowledge. And in my mind the same thing happens. There were imposed thoughts, imposed habits, imposed understandings, but when I become aware of the truth about them, I start to rearrange them, just like I do with the refrigerator, some I even completely throw them out of me. I'm starting to wonder, this imposed thought or habit, does it benefit me or am I just blindly following it?? My emotions, where do they come from?? Do I have to keep the same ones in me all the time?? are they using me or wasting me??? When I realize that I am stuck in unnecessary habits, thoughts, emissions, I start cleaning. I'm getting rid of the old ones and giving way to new ones, which at the moment I think are better for my existence.

And so constantly, as I rearrange the refrigerator at every shopping trip, I rummage in my thoughts, in my emotions, in my actions and constantly rearrange - rearrange in the same body, in the same but rearranged mind. I sort out the chaos within myself. That doesn't mean that once sorted it will stay that way, but I learned until the next sorting, to enjoy the sorted refrigerator, in the sorted emotions, until it is time for new rearrangements, in thoughts, in habits, in emotions, in the refrigerator.

I learned not to get annoyed when the new chaos comes, but to roll up my sleeves and start arranging and creating a space for receiving the new situation, from which I will certainly draw new insights, so in the next period I will enjoy them.

And not to pretend that it was always like that. With that rearrangement of mine, I gradually became aware that I should enjoy the process, and not get annoyed because of it.

Eeee – life – refrigerator.
Author of the text: Susana Petresca
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Susana Petresca is a participant in the 21 day yoga challenge that started on August 14 and lasts until September 3, where she published this post.
We thank her endlessly for sharing this insight of hers with us, her inspiration is also our inspiration! We hope that her posts, texts and notes with which she showers us. they will end up one day in her book.